why does it feel like mourning? 
numb from the pain and the denial
not able to breathe
or sleep

does it feel like mourning because i have lost the person i was

slowly the sadness crept in
and my old untroubled self started to fade

the person is now gone
nothing but a hazy distant memory

a person i no longer feel connected to
as if i didn’t know them at all

darkness and nothingness took over
and the light in my heart has been dimmed
to a dull flicker

constantly mourning something idon’t remember having

a lost girl struggling to be found again